"And tell me, what's truly meant to be?"

27th Sep 04; Monday-
HELLO EVERYONE!!
I'm freaking happy and hyper now. Ultra elated man. Heh. I just feel like bouncing around and say hello to every neighbour I have. LOL.
The reason why I'm so happy is because my dearest, sweetest uncle got me ROW 4 TICKETS TO JAY'S CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hehehehehe. It's to the 26th Nov 04 concert, not the 27th Nov 04 one. Yup. But anyway. At 1st I had asked my uncle to help me book right in the morning today. But he smsed me and told me that the Sistic guy told him all the $148 tickets were sold out already. I was totally. Crushed. Damn moody man. Was so damn sad. But the Sistic guy cocked up freaking big time man. My uncle went online and there were seats available!! He suddenly smsed me around noon and he said he could get row 7 seats for me. I was damn happy. But I had to get 3 tickets instead of 2 this time, so I asked him to book 3 tickets for me. But row 7 didn't have 3 seats together so I had to settle for row 9. But then before I could reply, my uncle told me that he could get row 4 tickets. I was so damn damn damn happy, I started making hysterical noises. LOL. Si Jia was totally "DIANE WHAT HAPPENED?? RELAX!!" Damn funny. Heh. So it's totally. Yu Guo Tian Qing. The sunshine after the rain. LOL. =D I know I'm sounding so damn drama but WHATEVER. Can't stop smiling man. So happppyyyyyyy!!! =D
Anyway. Thou shall go study for History test tomorrow. And I'll start memorizing Jay's lyrics [including the rap numbers lol =D] and make huge banners. Heh.

she sang away at | 6:51 PM

24th Sep 04; Friday-
Sigh.
I. Feel depressed.
I. Wanna cry again.
I. Hate myself for not bidding on the spot.
I. Can't believe I missed a chance to be happy again.
I. Feel sucky all over.
I. Don't wanna be sulking all the way to Jay's concert.
I. Don't wanna sound stupid and childish but I really can't help feeling freaking shitty.
I. Am regretting so damn badly now for not bidding for the tickets.
I. Just have one word to say.
FUKC.

she sang away at | 7:33 PM

22nd Sep 04; Wednesday-
Helloo.
Hmmm. Wanted to update yesterday but I fell asleep instead. Haha. Anyway. Here's a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO HAZEL! =)
Bought a chocolate cake for her yesterday. It was a surprise thingy. After we finished singing the birthday song damn loudly, the entire canteen started clapping and cheering. Damn lol! Heh. Hazel was so damn paiseh la. Lol. =D
Went out with her, Soon Kheng and Si Jia after that to Orchard. Took neoprints! Heh. Bought a red tote bag from Adidas. Am loving it. Lol. =)
Had Amaths test today. Sucked. AS USUAL. Ugh. Have 3 tests to study for tomorrow!!! Dieeee. Signing off nowwww.

she sang away at | 7:39 PM

18th Sep 04; Saturday-
Hi.
Went out with the Retarded Fubus today. Was supposed to go cycling but ended up going to Escape. Yea. Yunhao was scared of all the rides so we lied to her that some weren't scary at all. Lol. And all she did was screammmmmmmmm. Haha.
We met these 2 kids who were at Escape with their mom. I like the boy. He's so damn good-looking+cute+sweet la. His mom entrusted them into our care. Lol. Went on rides with the 2 kids. Though he was rather quiet, I could sense that he was growing attached to us because he was like "mommy can we go eat dinner with the jie jies" and "mommy can we go orchard" because we were actually planning to go orchard. I was so.. touched. Haha. Feel that he's gonna grow up to be a sweet and sensitive guy. As in the boy-next-door kind. Not geeky but not bad boy. Yuupp. Just nice. =) His mom sent us to the MRT station and Navon was so sad when he saw that we were leaving and probably not gonna see him again. Mannnn. I like Navon a lot. He's really such a sweet little boy. I wished I had him as a little brother. And yea, I'm bias. I prefer him to his sister. Navon, I'm missing you now!! =(
Anyway. Took quite a few pictures while on the train. Hope Yvette's gonna upload them. Went for dinner at Holland V with Yvette after that. Sat down and talked quite a lot. Yupppp. Came home and there were 2 boxes of Chilli crabs waiting for me. My God. Heavenly. =)
Damn tired now. Gotta go sleep. So. Signing off.

she sang away at | 1:32 AM

17th Sep 04; Friday-
Ugh.
I can't believe exams are just 3 weeks away.
And I haven't started studying at all.
I don't wanna fail anything, including Amaths.
I wanna work hard and do well to prove to my mom that I'm not just some lazy ass.
I wanna prove that it's worth spending money on tuition for me.
But I just can't motivate me.
I CAN'T.
Someone motivate me please.
Motivation and being stressed to do well is what I really need right now.
And someone please give me 10 good reasons why I should stop regretting and accept the fact that my seats for Jay's concert can't be changed.
And can someone please get y o u out of my mind???
I can't seem to concentrate.
UGH.

she sang away at | 7:43 PM

16th Sep 04; Thursday-
S.t.u.c.k: Linda - I Miss You So/Jay - Ge Qian.
Hey.
Hmmm. Jay's concert tickets are 50% sold out already. I wonder the general public have what to buy man. All the $148 tickets are sold out. Yeaa. Guess I have no choice but to accept my seats.
Went for a "tuition session" just now. "Catched up" with an "old" friend. Lol. Didn't really turn out to be a tuition session la. We ended up talking more than working. Hahaha. But it was. Really fun. =) Yuuup. At least I ended up doing 3 questions from the Crescent Amaths Paper. Haha.
Am watching The Apprentice now. I like Donald Trump!! He's a damn cool old man. Heh. Such a successful person with a dry sense of humour. I like Kwane and Troy! Kwane's Mr-Nice-Guy while Troy's just a good leader and a nice person? Haha. Unlike Katrina. Eww.
Singapore Idol!! Maia TOTALLY deserves to go in man. I really, really like her a lot. Sylvester was kind of a surprise for me. Haha. And I don't like Beverly!! I don't know why. I rather Nana got in. She's so much better lor. Sighhhh. =(

she sang away at | 11:07 PM

14th Sep 04; Tuesday-
Hey.
Incomparable To Jay World Tour!!!!! Jay's coming to Singapore on the 27th Nov 04 for a concert!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. But it's so sudden. I thought he was gonna come next year. Haha.
Booked the tickets already. But my seats suck BIG TIME. Damn F-U-K-C man. I'm still freaking regretting like crazy. If I had thought of calling my uncle to help me book the tickets right in the early morning I would be one of the happiest people around now because I would have gotten the front row seats?!?!?!?!?! FUKC la. UGH. Damn freaking pissed with myself. But at least Bennett doesn't mind buying the tickets from me if I get better seats for myself. Yea. I really, really, really, really hope I will be able to get MUCH MUCH MUCH better seats so that I can enjoy myself during the concert. If I have to stick with the old tickets, I'll probably sulk throughout the concert because I wouldn't be able to see a damn thing clearly. UGH.
Okay. Enough of whining about my tickets. But I'm still damn freaking pissed with myself. UGH!!!!!
Anyway. Was supposed to go watch the concert with someone but ended up, he's gonna go with his friend. Yea. =( BUT nvm. I've got TERESA to go with me!! THANK YOU TERESA FOR BEING SUCH A SWEEEEEETIEEEEE!!!!! =D
Heh. Am glad that I found someone who's willing to spend 150 bucks to go watch someone who isn't her number 1 idol. Yeaaaa. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! =)
Hmmm. Debate's coming up!!! Dieeee. Haven't really, really researched on the topic yet. =X Gonna go researching on the topic now!

she sang away at | 6:28 PM

11th Sep 04; Saturday-
Hey.
Decided to erase my previous entry and write a new one. Don't know why. Haha.
Anyway. Happy Birthdays to Teresa and Rachell! May you people be Teresa and Rachell always. Lol I'm not making sense.
Anyway. Watched the Singapore Hit Awards 2004. Am happy for Jay. He won 3 awards. Yup. But I still don't understand why Jay lost the Best Performing Regional Male Artiste to Wang Lee Hom. And why he wasn't nominated in the Most Popular Artiste [Taiwan]. Double Ugh.
School Holidays are gonna be over. Sigh. I don't wanna go back to school. I wish I had spent my entire one week usefully instead of rotting everyday at home. Sucks to it.

If I could
I would tell her not to be afraid
I hope you can hear me
The pain that's she feeling
The sense of loneliness will fade
So dry your tears and rest assured
Love will find you like before
When she's looking back at me
I know nothing really works that easily

'Cause the girl in my mirror
Is crying in tonight
And there's nothing I can tell her
To make her feel alright
Oh, the girl in my mirror
Is crying 'cause of you
And I wish there was something
I wish there was something
Oh, I wish there was something I could do

At moments like now, nothing beats sad old bubblegum pop songs from Britney. Hah.

she sang away at | 3:08 PM

7th Sep 04; Tuesday-
S.t.u.c.k: Avril Lavigne/BoA.
Hey.
As much as I don't wanna admit, Avril's "Under My Skin" is not bad. Surprisingly. I've always been negative towards her. I just can't stand that poserrr-look she has. No offense. And BoA's "My Name" sucks big time man. Disappointing.
Anyway. It's the 2nd day of the holidays. I'm still slacking away. I'm supposed to start studying. But all I've been doing is rotting. Ugh. Can someone/something please motivate me???

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

Do you remember what happened 2 years ago, on today? I do. I remember it so damn clearly. I was probably at one of my happiest points in my life or something.

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

But then you just had to end it all. Just poof! Like that. Yea so we did, we got back, but for like what, less than a week?

Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

I could have been one of the happiest girls around, on today. 7th Sep 04. I could have been out with you, celebrating this special day.

Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

But what's the point of me reminiscing and wishing when you've long moved on already anyway?

she sang away at | 4:11 PM

4th Sep 04; Saturday-
It's official. I'm never gonna go karaoke-ing with Soon Kheng and Sharmaine anymore.
LOL. Both of them will deafen you with their endless screechings. Man. But damn funny also la. They cracked me up so badly I peed in my pants. HAHAHAHA.
Met everyone in Clementi this morning. Yvette's mom was so kind as to fetch us to the nyaa place. We went to pass a mattress to Mr Wee before heading to Town again. Yvette didn't join us because she went to study+++. Haha. =)
Managed to catch the film 13 going on 30. Okay-okay la. Would have rathered spending my money on The Bourne Supremacy but oh well. At least I didn't waste my money on some dumb flick like A Cinderella Story. Lol.
Ate at Pasta Mania after that. I went off to a shop for awhile to listen to the song playing in it and as expected, my food was "poisoned" by the guilty faces sitting next to me. CHEN YUNHAO. YONG SOON KHENG. Yunhao added tabasco sauce into my salad?? Tabasco sauce+Mayo don't really go very well together yea know? And Soon added chilli flakes. Daaaaaahhh. Played a guessing game and Yunhao lost. She had to eat mashed-up chicken bits with tomato, a hell lot of pepper and cheese, tabasco sauce, salt and chilli flakes. LOL.
Walked around in Heeren aimlessly. Still can't find a damn pair of shades that will suit my face!! Ugh. Wanted to take neoprints but we didn't. Bought snapple and Yunhao broke hers outside Cine. Some angmoh scolded her for leaving the glass bits on the floor. LOL.
Ended up at Kbox in Cine. Yunhao went back first. Sang all the Jay Chou songs first. [AS USUAL =D] Soon sang with me for everything else except for Jay. Haha. Shar tried to sing along but er I guess singing just doesn't work out for her? Wahahaha. Sang a lot. The funniest part came when we tried to sing "Superstar" by S.H.E. There were parts that were damn high and we ended screeching away into the mike. My God. We got an extra huge room somemore?? Echo echo. LOL. Soon really really cracked me up big time when she ended the song with the "you are my superstar boyyyy, boyyyyyy, boyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!" She just couldn't shut up about the boy part?!? Damn hilarious.
We spent about 3 hours there. When the bill came, haha. The damn bill came up to so damn freaking expensive. All of us were penniless. LOL. Miscalcuations on my part. Heh. Had to call my sister for help. Lol. We wanted to drag the time longer so that my sis could come over to help me settle the bill so we ended up singing again. Shar and Soon started shouting things like "I HATE KBOX" "THIS KBOX SUCKS" "I'M NEVER GONNA COME KBOX AGAIN" into the mikes. Damn funny!! We ended our karaoke session with a "Superstar" again. LOL. Screeeeeeecheeeeed away to the parts. Really shouted into the mike man. The "YOU ARE MY SUPERSTAR, BOYYYYYYYY!!!!" by both Shar and Soon succeeded in making me pee in my pants again. DAMN FUNNY!!!!!
Thus I conclude that Sharmaine Khoo and Yong Soon Kheng might not be the best karaoke buddies to go kbox-ing with, but they sure can make you pee in the pants. LOL. =D

she sang away at | 11:16 PM

1st Sep 04; Wednesday-
Hey.
Happy Teachers' Day. Haha. The concert yesterday was okay. Wenxiang won! Happy for him. =)
The school's sound system sucks BIG time. The school should really spend more money in upgrading the system then using the cash to paint our school in stupid colours.
The performance yesterday wasn't good. Unhappy me. Haha. The cordless mike didn't work well. Was trying to sing as loud as I could. Dah.
Totally don't regret buying Nan Quan Ma Ma's album. They're just like Jay. You have to listen the album a few times then you'll start to like the songs that you initially disliked. Yea. They're unique. Definitely a band worth supporting. Am infatuated with them. Haha.
Went back to phpps with Yunhao. The guys I saw throughout my 6 years in Pei Hwa have all grown up. They are damn good-looking now. Was damn shocked. Yeaa.
Went out with Hazel, Soon, Sharlene, Liren, Suanwee, Kathe, Weiliang and his cousin. Yup. Wanted to watch The Bourne Supremacy but ended up watching Catwoman because the guys already watched the former. Yup. Ate at Swensens'. Weiliang treated us to free sundaes because he had some free voucher thingy. Shared a cab with Liren, Sharlene and Hazel. The driver was driving so damn fast. I could feel the pasta I ate coming up my throat. Lol. Asked Liren to tell the driver to drive slower. Damn lol man.

and to y o u: Not surprised I am. But crushed i am. It's so typical you. Why am I still clinging on to something that's not existing? Tell me. I thought I had way gotten over that damn stage. But apparently I didn't. Haven't. So here's to you: Don't start. Don't you talk to me about your new ^her. Don't do that to me again. I. Can't. Take. That. Kind. Of. ^Pain. ^Jealousy. Again. DON'T.

she sang away at | 5:30 PM